Relationships
All around friends are dating, getting engaged, or married.
I find myself wondering at times “am I behind in the game?”
As a musician it’s tough not to hear a song that reminds you of some specific event in the past. It’s like a second sense of smell that speaks to the heart rather than just the brain.
When a song or type of song is played with just the right kind blend of pitches, harmonies, etc. then it speaks to the soul. All the tones on a piano vibrate at the same frequency as the chemicals that make up your body. So music literally “moves” you.
Sometimes this Music is an exciting movement. Other times, it’s painful because it used to be exciting and now has become a reminder of what’s been lost and left behind. Musicians are keenly aware of this and hear music in everything. There is a song everywhere you go and in every situation of life. Music is pervasive.
In any event, it is merely a part of the heartbeat of Christ.
Cool fact:
Baby’s fall asleep on your chest because the rhythm of a heartbeat is what they were closest to for 9 months and it comforts them.
The world is trying to remember it’s creator’s heartbeat though many will create substitutes for the real thing. Our comfort is in Him and Him alone. It is His heartbeat that quiets all the pain, suffering, calamity, turmoil and sin in our lives.
So what does this have to do with relationships? To put it simply “Happy Feet.” I am jealous at times that others seem to have found their heart songs and have found someone to sing with. Being an “oddball” is a tough blessing to come by. It teaches me patience, allows me to be broken in Christ, and makes for a tough journey to understanding God’s will for my life.
Passage Psalm 37:5-6:
5Commit your way to the Lord [roll and repose each care of your load on Him]; trust (lean on, rely on, and be confident) also in Him and He will bring it to pass. 6And He will make your uprightness and right standing with God go forth as the light, and your justice and right as [the shining sun of] the noonday.
Words from the Word are always encouraging. It’s a reassurance that God is seeking after me, and after you with all of His [infinite] heart. He will bring to pass the [way] He has set out for each of our lives.
It’s always tough to understand this because it seems as though everyone else finds joy much easier and that I am left with a deeper search, but I think my Jesus for this. I am not called to be like everyone else, but to be set apart. If that means I must remain only in Christ and with no other right now so that I can help lead worship with no hindrances, then so be it. He knows what’s best for His kingdom and I will serve as He commands so that He gets the best of me and uses me as He pleases to point His children back to Him.
One day He will bless me with someone to care for, someone to lead in love, in intimacy, in the Word, and in action. Someone that I will be able to be a “priest, prophet, provider, and protector” for.
He will allow me to take my place as a guard to the walls of her heart that I might keep it hidden and safe for Christ.
I look forward to that day as I anxiously and authentically serve my Lord.
This one is definitely a 1 Peter 5: 9-10 topic! Believe me, I’m right there with ya. I even struggle sometimes believing that she’s even out there! Bottom line, we’ve gotta find joy in Him and Him alone, because He’s the only thing we’re guaranteed!